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a long overdue and way too personal life update
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- Published on Sep 23, 2023 veröffentlicht
- I know this is probably way too uncensored and way too much information BUT i feel i owe it to you to let you into my life and see all the pieces that aren't connecting. this was a very isolating and confusing era of my life and i hope that at least one person can find something in here that makes them feel less alone in the midst of chaos. thank you for giving me this platform for all of these years i truly love you so so much.
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timestamps
0:00 - clearly nervous intro
2:54 - how i derailed my entire life
8:21 - why i dropped out of school
13:18 - please, no more shots
16:25 - the lawsuit 35
23:26 - botox and filler oh my
26:13 - please, seek help
if you're reading this comment "everyone meet at the deep end at 4"
I just love you so much that is all. I know this is probably way too uncensored and way too much information but I feel I owe it to you all to connect all of the missing dots. 🤍 thank you for letting me just be me
Is your house almost finished
It’s the best way to be chica! You are a mood and I adore ya.
“This is how your fucked today!” Yep totally a mood. But girl #Vlogmas2023 will be epic! 😂
You don’t owe us anything girlie!!
everyone meet at the deep end at 4
hi Morgan, when is the house gonna be finished 🥺
***Morgan*** You are not alone. The random weight gain. Not physically recognizing yourself. Not mentally recognizing yourself. So many of us (100% myself) are going through the same thing and we appreciate that you're being honest about it. STRESS. Omg. What even is life anymore unless you are stressed all the time? Is there a way to not be? Anyway, keep doing you. Life is hard.
Stress sucks.
🙋🏻♀️🙋🏻♀️me! Chronic pain is my stress. 50 pounds! Mostly stress but also meds. I used to struggle to gain weight but now I can’t get it off and I DO NOT recognize myself! 😳🫥
I definitely gained 50 lbs in 5 months when I broke my ankle and I was couch bound. My mom was also getting really sick from her cancer (stage IV breast). I’ve never fully recovered…but I’m trying!
@Sarah Boles-HaslupThat’s what I expected to happen but I actually lost weight after I had an ankle reconstruction. It’s the damn crutches!! Those things are a workout…
I’m 55 yrs old and watch you and your family. I wish I could hug you. This was brave. I’m proud of you.
me too!! I'm 55 yrs old and my momma's heart is very warm to Morgan.
She is a precious jewel, I just love her too!!!! In good times and bad.
Oh bingo. 🙄
Meds for correctly diagnosed ADHD are meant to calm and center but girls totally scattered, tweaking, manic.
This is going to complicate and exacerbate all her problems
43 year old Australian Mum of 5 here.
You know what makes you such a good role model?
It’s that you are real, raw and relatable.
Even at 43… I totally need to rediscover myself and need a full whole body makeover. In the meantime food is both my friend and my enemy.
Never apologise for being yourself!!
We all love you the way you are ❤
Yes this. Thank you.
I’ve never loved and related to you more ❤
STRESS IS A KILLER WE NEED TO PRIORITIZE SELF CARE
this is what a real role model is. taking accountability and vulnerability.i applaud you for the amount of courage that this took for you.thank you for spreading this message and your story
- a 16 year old girl 💗
I love how you go from dark humour to “this is my favourite blush”. I’m a Counsellor and I’m raising my hand to say I’ve been struggling. Sat in the garden in the sun on my second glass of white, by myself. Sometimes we have to just ride the wave. It’ll pass. Nothing is linear
THIS is what transparency means. It’s so important to share experiences with alcohol, especially because it gets swept under the rug when it comes addictions. Being able to share your emotional swings and all you went through shows how genuine you are. You are one of a kind, Morgan and I admire you so much! Blessings and prayers 💛💛
Did she stop drinking, I’m lost there’s so much she talked about that it was hard to follow. Maybe I have ADDHD. 😢
@Crystal Vera I think she said she drinks 2-3 times a month normally. She doesn't drink alone every day anymore.
As a 28 year old who sees 'influences' on social media being all fake and not who they are. I'm so glad that you do youtube and never changed. You are a role model for so many people.
I love that you spoke about the topic of excessive drinking! I feel like it’s so normalized to drink in excess and people don’t realize what a slippery slope it is for their mentality. Healthy coping mechanisms are so important! we love how open and transparent you are about everything Morgan ❤
Morgan, as someone who went into a very deep depression and stress that went from weighing 175 to weighing 220 I completely understand what you’re going through. I’m glad that everything is starting to be better. Much love.
Wow, I went through the exact same weight change! Down to that number! It really made me so depressed. I actually ended up going vegan and I lost all the weight in almost 2 months!
This is so eerie. I’m going through this. Exact same weight change as well. I’m so stressed and depressed. I have so much anxiety and on top of that the weight gain.
Morgan coming from a recovering addict. I think a lot of us saw you were reaching out for help but didn't know what to do. We all love you and want the best for you!
We love a genuine honest queen! We absolutely adore you Morgan! ✨✨✨✨
Beep bop... I'm the Philosophy Bot. Here, have a quote:
"The irrationality of a thing is no argument against its existence, rather a condition of it"
~ Nietzsche
I get it girl. I gained almost 80lbs after a mental breakdown, myself. Im currently on the second year after and working my weight back off. It’s hard to pull yourself up from the depths ❤❤❤
My partner went trough a legal battle with now his ex employer, boy those were 8 rough months. Sending you much positive energy and prayers ❤
I sometimes feel like Morgan and I have the same feelings at the same time, but different situations. It’s so nice to watch someone who goes through the same stuff as you do. Also she finds always the best way possible to describe everything that’s going on
I cannot explain to you how much I needed to hear this. Thank you for being so freaking relatable to me.
I love that you told us about the Botox and such. It’s nice to hear different people’s experiences and how it went or how they felt afterwards. You don’t owe anyone anything in regards to telling information like that. It’s genuine of you to tell us like a big sister the experience you had ❤😊
This spoke to me so hard! Thanks for being open and honest with us! ❤️ Everyone meet at the deep end at 4! 🎉
thank you for being so honest with us and for being so kind and nice, you really have the ability to talk about things and emotions with a sincerity and tenderness that really helps to relate to them and to approach them better in our own lifes, it really helps listening to you , love you ❤
Morgan you are going to graduate 👩🎓 Write yourself another goal letter with a realistic time to register and finish those last two semesters. You made the right choice to keep yourself financially stable and work on yourself. In a year your house will be complete, legal dramas a thing of the past… Fall 2024 this Queen is going back to University. Looking forward to a spring 2025 graduation vlog.
Thank you for this 🥹 it actually inspired me hahah
It’s all perspective it’s not quitting school it’s just putting your education on pause. Your mental health is priority number one and there’s no point in the renovated house if you can’t afford to turn the lights on. It’s never too late I went back to school at 28 and graduated at 30. You can do this when you get that itch to go back you will know it’s time. Let this time be the year of Morgan falling in love with Morgan.
Morgan....fellow Morgan... never apologize for having to deal with life. We love you for keeping it real!
That weight gain confusion is SO relatable. I've gained a LOT more weight back since the first time I started losing weight a few years ago and its been hard for me to edit and feel confident enough to post videos to youtube now or even on IG. I feel so comforted since you were able to share that with us. I could feel myself spiraling as well so this was a well needed wake up call for me. Thanks for giving us an update on what happened. I hope you continue to feel better and heal from this! 💗
Don’t ever apologise for going away and dealing with absolute shit. We love you for you and everything you go through. Fuck the brutal bastards ❤️
this was so relatable I was like that for a year and I can’t even think about it, it hurts a lot but I’m so glad I’m back to myself I love listening to your videos love you Morgan and I hope you are doing really well💕💕
21:52 this is exactly how I felt losing weight after pregnancy. It felt like reclaiming myself and made me realize what a hard period of life I was leaving behind.
exactly!! 2 years later I am finally back down to my pre-baby weight and finally feel like myself again
You are my favorite Clip-Sharer as a single girl over 40. So genuine and relatable. I don’t watch many people, but I keep coming back to yours, because they’re so real!
Morgan, I was told I had ADHD in second grade. Because I and my parents were against medication I did nothing till I was 20 years old. This is when I got formally diagnosed and started ADHD meds. It’s like my mind was driving 80mph on the freeway in California at Russ hour and meds take me down to 25mph on a country road. It’s life changing. I’m so happy for you. I can honestly say 10 years later I have zero regrets in starting an ADHD med.
This comment made me take my meds finally for the day which I’ve procrastinated
I wish I could find meds that don’t send me into panic attacks. Any advice? :( I struggle daily with adhd
My story is very similar! I wish I had been on meds my whole life. I’m just grateful to have had them since college.
@It’s Jess have you tried generic testing to see what meds are right fit you?
@It’s Jess this might sound like strange advice but I would prioritize finding a better doctor over the right meds, once you find the right doctor everything else will come around. You need someone willing to listen to you when you say “hey I don’t like these” or “these make me feel like a zombie” or “these make me even more depressed”. A good doctor will listen and give their recommendation something like “well I would like if you tried this for at least one more month because it takes 3-4 weeks to really take affect so we want to make sure it’s not a good fit” or “okay I’m not sure why that would be case, I thought this would help because it increases xyz and that should improve things but let’s try something else” or the best response “I’m sorry it’s making things worse, here’s another medicine we can try that people who have had similar reactions like yours to that medication often prefer”. This is what my doctor did, I tried for 4 medications, each for 1-2 months before finding one that works. Normally a person would have anxiety about meds making them feel worse but this approach helps you see a light at the end of the tunnel and that you have the power to advocate and be in charge of your health, changing your meds because you know yourself, as long as you work WITH your doctor and wait out the few weeks of trial and error. I hope you can find a doctor like that! Keep looking around and also use Google reviews before seeing a doctor to see if they have good feedback, once you actually meet them it’s harder to switch providers with insurance. You got this good luck
Praying for you Morgan 💛 I pray that your situation gets better and that God gives you strength 💛
Life isn't completed without Morgans vlogs
☺️🙆♂️ right!
You should write positive sentences; for example, life is complete with Morgan’s vlogs
This is why we love you. Honesty is a virtue Sis 💙💙
I'm spiraling right now. You are a good role model Morgan, thank you for being real.
You spoke to me saying when you gain or lose weight you don’t recognize yourself, I barely push 100lbs, coming out of an abusive relationship and I don’t recognize myself. Fighting for my life to gain weight. Thank you for speaking your truth. ❤
Wow! She’s so REAL I love it! I feel in to drinking that same way it’s so cool to watch her talk about it! ❤
Hearing Morgan talk about how she gained weight and how she felt about it, was the most relatable thing I’ve ever heard. Thank you for talking about it with us. It’s almost kinda comforting knowing someone so beautiful in my eyes can also struggle with self imagine. I hope that isn’t taken the wrong way! Anyways love Morgan, you’re wonderful 🤍
Not taken the wrong way at all, I appreciate you so much 🥹❤️❤️
Been watching you for years, you're an absolute rocket and an inspiration to many. Much love and stay strong ❤
Morgan I feel like you’re a dear friend to me & I want you to know watching your trials and tribulations does not feel like watching you fail, we are all watching you continue to grow!! You’re such a bright light and that’s how you got the nice corner. ❤ keep being you sister. You’re on the other side. 🎉
The quiet brain thing is such a nice feeling… totally get it! I haven’t really heard anyone else explain it like you did and it just clicks!
The fact that I am going through the EXACT depressive/body dismorphic situation as you did but didn't fully comprehend/realize it until you explained it just now..im honestly speechless.😭
Sending you so much love and best vibes 💛 I'm feeling the same way, I'm happy in some ways and others I'm just in that damn hole, trying to make it as everyone else is. It's hard but I'm positive and we got this girl!
The best kind of role model is one that lives authentically. I thank you for your courage not only in your daily life, with all that you've been working towards for the last few years, but to also share your story with us on here. Legal battles are so hard. Let yourself feel that. We are here for you.
So true!
Morgan, I love you and I'm praying for you! Thank you so much for opening up to us.
Morgan, my Husband has been sick since our wedding day. Hasn't worked for 8 months and is fallen into depression. We all get it. You are handling it as you should. ❤
i've been struggling lately and i love to see those in the media being so vunerable and reltable! love you girl💓
I tried not crying when you were talking about how out of body you’ve been😭😭 Love you and thank you for being so real. I wish the best for you. Keep going love!!
I would describe ADHD medication as lifting a veil, it just makes everything more clear. I am glad you worked through your tough time Morgan. We all want the best for you
Morgan, I'm a whole ass married 40 yr old with a teenager and every time you have these sit down chats or chicken coop chats (which I very much enjoy), I swear, there is so much I learn from you. Your perspective and your words, my gosh, have taught me accountability, toward myself mainly, which is one of those hard to swallow realizations one doesn't always want to face; but just know it has been helpful in ways I hadn't noticed before. Not trying to make a long ass speech, so to cut it off here, thank you. You truly are an incredible, inspirational young woman. I am cheering for you and your endeavors...chaotic and neutral haha.
& very well said!
Oh my goodness girl SAMEEEE.. 47, 2 teen daughters. Love Morgan for every bit of wisdom she gives us Re. her generation. It’s so refreshing and helps me be a better mumma.
thiiiiiis ^^^ we’re all so different, but really we’re SO similar. Makes me feel better! 🤍
@Lucy Lu Yes!, especially for her generation. Look at you Morgan, bringing people together ❤
Same! 38 here with two teens and a 3 year old. Morgan you have already learned lessons most don’t learn till much later in life. Morgan you are amazing! Your prospective is so genuine.
Morgan, you're an absolutely beautiful upbeat young woman. I've been watching you for years and wondering where you've been lately and hearing you're story makes perfect sense why you've been absent. I'm disabled and have been since 2007. I understand so much of what you said about not recognizing yourself. I'm so glad to hear you're coming out on the other side of what you've been dealing with. I truly hoping to continue too see more of you and want to thank you for sharing what you can about your horrible experience. The willingness to share your truth will make such a difference for all your followers avidly support you. Welcome back, I hope to see so much more from you in the coming days, weeks and even months.
Love your transparency Morgan 🥰 Thank you for sharing!!
Morgan, thank you for being you! 🫶🏼 The fact that you are so honest and open with us makes me feel so much less alone. Yes queen! 💅🏼✨
We love you!!! I just went to my third hospital in three days and finally got help I needed 🎉❤ we’re rooting for you always Morgan!
Morgan you don't have to be anybodys role model - be you ❤ and if you need to take a break, take the damn break!
Really glad you're feeling better within and about yourself and thanks for being vulnerable with us. ❤❤
“Hi nice to meet you I’m un fucking well” 💀 the girls that get it get 😂 But seriously, thank you for continually being your authentic and candid gorgeous self. It’s one thing to scroll social media and tell yourself that it’s all an illusion and people curate/post the best versions of themselves, it’s another to actually be able to hear someone you look up to and admire being open about their own struggles and experiences. Grateful for everything you choose to share with us 🖤
the way I couldn’t clip that sound bite fast enough to use it in my everyday life 😅
These videos help so much being in my early 20’s and navigating stress and mental health real videos and raw feelings mean so much . Been watching you since you first got posted on Shane’s channel and you started your own channels ❤ .life is sometimes such a spiral and hard to see a light and it’s a relief to hear someone I look up to relate . We love you
I love you. Thank you. I still can’t quite express how much you have helped me grow. Seeing your honesty with the dark bits of life… it’s freeing to not have to hide. What I’ve found myself working on is not letting the spiral go so long. Like I am allowed to feel this emotion but I don’t have to let it drag me down. We are standing up. Still keep you in my prayers sis. I am really proud of you for recognizing… and not being ashamed to share; because I’ve been slipping here recently. I needed a little wake up call too. Thank you for being you, quirks and all. ♥️
Everything will work out. I’m so sorry all of this bullshit happened to you! I pray those POS that Fxxcked you on the house pay for what they did!!!! Stay strong beautiful lady❤
Morgan thank you for your transparency, we love your unfiltered videos!!! im so sorry you went through such a shit year. so happy to hear you are on the other side!! your videos always make me feel all bright and giddy for the day
Thank you for your honesty Morgan. You are a beautiful soul. ❤
It feels so refreshing to hear someone talk about how stress and alcohol impact thinking. I recently came to my own conclusion with alcohol. Congratulations Morgan on getting through it!
Drinking made me gain like 50lbs so fast and as soon as I stopped I started dropping weight like crazy.. but was drinking bc of stress and depression..
Hey Morgan
I’ve been watching you for years ever since I was 11 with Shane and Ryland im 15 now and. Seeing you like this hurts
I’m so sorry your feeling like this girl, I get you your not alone don’t let yourself fall. You actaully help so many people Morgan me and thousands of others people love you and care for you your family love you and you are not alone I relate to a lot of what your feeling and it fr sucks to go through that and see it happen no one deserves that and especially you.
I hope things get better I really do 🫂
I’m proud of you!! Way to push through and keep fighting!!
Wow, Morgan. I am sorry that you have had to go through so much crap this year! Keep strong and remember that it DOES get better 😊
Morgan! This is deep as hell, & SO relatable ❤ the way you articulate feelings that I’ve had but haven’t quite been able to explain 🤌🏼 you’re a baddy, & the real ones are all here for you! #spiralgang
Cookie did great entertaining us while you walked away 👍🏼👍🏼💖💖💖🐈⬛️✨️
Honestly Morgan, you're so beautiful inside and out. You give us all a safe space to just be ❤ thank you for being you❤
You’re not alone Morgan. I went undiagnosed my whole life which made things so much more confusing and made the spirals so much more frequent. The meds quieted my brain completely and help me 110000%. I am so proud of you.
Omg this is like pages out of my journal. As sad as I feel you've had to know this trauma, it is comforting to hear that I am not the only one living in an absolutely INSANE horror film. Sending you love and light. Thank you for putting your story out there 🩷🩷🩷
Love you Morgan! Thank you for being so transparent ❤️
i see myself so much in Morgan. She is like the big sister i never had x
Been having the worst few weeks and girl I loved this vid. Always appreciate your honesty!! ❤❤
I love you so much Morgan! You are so down to earth and so relatable. Keep being YOU even when your mind tells you negative stuff. You are awesome.
Please keep us posted on the ADHD meds. Im on so many meds already for different medical reasons, and my ADHD is becoming more apparent... but I really don't want to go on more meds 😢
Totally respect & admire you for posting this. It’s so vulnerable & brave! I relate to this in sooo many ways. Love you Morgannnn stay strong ❤️
Morgan by sharing this you made me feel not alone in the struggle. Thanks 🙏 and I really hope you can find your balance
This video is exactly what I needed. I can’t even explain how refreshing this tone was. Being so honest and vulnerable but not looking for anything besides a space to be honest and that these moments although hard are temporary
Hun we all go through the shit. Just hope you’re doin good physically and mentally. Keep the content coming cause I need something to relate to and as someone of the same age and dealing with similar issues it’s truly encouraging seeing you’re videos. Friggin love you!!!!!
Personality brings the good or bad people not gonna lie I feel like I always watch the people I can relate to
I didn't go on ADHD meds until I was 30, when I say life changing! I went from barely graduating high school to going to college at 30 yrs old and graduating with a 3.97 gpa and thinking to myself "I thought that was going to be harder than it was". I'm now almost 50 and can't imagine my life without them.
thank you for perfectly describing my spiral into alcoholism
I’m so glad your storm has quieted and the sunshine is back! It’s so nice to know we don’t endure storms alone and it feels great that the sun shines on us together too. Shine bright girl ❤☀️😊
Never feel bad for sharing how you feel to people. When you said “stop taking everything so personally” that hit home because I do tend to take things personally but this year I am really trying not to for my own mental health.
Thank you for sharing with us! 🫶🏽
Cookie so completely unbothered in the background while Morgan spills her heart and soul. You've been through so much, sister. Thanks for being vulnerable and sharing. We want you to thrive.
Thank you for being honest! We all think you are so beautiful inside and out!!! We love you!
Im so thankful for your content morgan. Im thankful youre a creator. Youve made an impact on my life and i want you to know im thankful you exist. Im sending you all my positive energy i understand things have been tough and you alwayd keep going, i hope you know you are not alone ❤️
“Everyone meet in the deep end at 4!” Love you forever and always, Morgan!! Thanks for so consistently inspiring me on such a regular basis, and for being my spirit human! Hope you’re having a fabulous weekend, adore you, thank you for your vulnerability because it’s super refreshing in this day and age! Xoxo Steven ❤
We love these videos! The raw vulnerability and honesty and I hope so so much you never listen to the negative toxic tiny portion of people and feel you can’t or don’t want to be as real and as vulnerable because there’s so much more of us who appreciate you ❤
I'm so glad your back!!! Sending you lots of love from Ontario Canada ♥
Honestly, you are the best role model ever, imo. Speaking your truth and telling things just how they are - and taking responsibility for your life? Some of the most important things people could learn from you!
Love you Morgan
Everyone meet at the deep end at 4 ❤
Thank you for your honesty Morgan! I can imagine these things can be so hard to talk about especially law stuff and mental health. That’s something I struggle with opening up about as well so thank you and I’m glad you are in a better place ❤
Holy sh*t I felt every part of this. I didn't get involved in anything legally but with what I had gone through I went on the same downward spiral, weight gain, mental state, health issues, all of the sh*t pouring on my head. You're not alone
You got this Morgan! I understand the spiral and you went through some big shit no one our age should but rest easy knowing you got yourself to where you are now! You are strong and you got this! You know we are always here to talk when you need! Love ya girl!
I used to watch every one of your videos and started to fall off of watching in 2020/2021 when I switched channels and lost all my subscriptions. This video came up on my homepage today and I was so happy to see you that I immediately clicked it. This video just hit me right in the gut. I’ve been there and the way you described how easy it is to spiral is so spot on. I respect you so much for your honesty and realness and it’s so comforting to see you on the other side of that dark place and know that you CAN get through it. I’ve definitely resubscribed to you and can’t wait to watch you shine ❤ ✨
When you said you didn’t recognize yourself anymore, I felt that. There have been many times that I have felt like I don’t recognize the person in the mirror or the person in pictures with my friends. Thank you for sharing your raw real emotions💕
i appreciate this honesty, we need this more on YT. also, this makes me feel not soooo alone. you are still human. keep striving baby! ❤ thank you for sharing this 🥺
Morgan, you always make me feel like I’m not alone. We are sisters in spirit that is for sure. I too am going through a time and too long to put into words however, knowing I’m not alone knowing that your struggle is real like so many of us, here, who love and adore your channel. I started my own health journey recently, and I always check out your page to see if you updated and I’m glad to hear that your legal issues are coming to a close and enjoy that beautiful house of yours and your beautiful family. Love to you all.
Omg girl we had no idea! Sending the best positive vibes your way.
I'm currently going through and struggling with all these same mental struggles, the alcohol and the weight gain (but no lawsuit lol). Finally going to a doctor for the first time tomorrow about it, but I love listening to others be so vulnerable and discuss their very similar struggles. It feels a lot less lonely, so thank you for being so open.
Thank you for your transparency this literally makes me feel so heart 😭 I had a similar experience this year and I feel like I’m finally seeing myself again 😭
You honestly don't give yourself enough credit for the strength you carry.
Thank you for being so real, transparent & relatable. You truly are a beautiful soul!
Cannot wait to see you continue to grow & see the progress of your home evolve!
Love ya!💜🤍💜
Morgan! Thank you so much for being very honest with your struggles with us. 🥲❤️ My year started out so rough. I was laid off from a job I absolutely loved, while I was on shift. I gave that company everything. I feel like complete garbage almost every day. I was in the middle of my healing/health journey and it all went out the window after that. I’ve lost interest in all my hobbies again, I’m gaining my weight back AGAIN, I legit just sit at home and stare out my window like Bella Swan in New Moon. 😔 I also went through a downward spiral with drinking a year ago so that’s been hard to not start again as well. Thank you for being so real with us. I’m also doing my best to fight my way through this. Always love your videos. We’re all rooting for you ❤️
Love you Morgan🤍 and you’re never alone. I love how authentic you are, hang in there queen 🤍
Also that you for being open, honest, and transparent. I connect with you on a spiritual level boo! I’m glad things are starting to look up.❤️