Ren - Su!cIde (Official Music Video)

Thankyou everyone so much for watching, this one was difficult to write, but im glad I got to share it with you. As always here are the lyrics and the link to stream
found.ee/ren-suic-de
Oh I, Oh I, Oh I've
fallen through the cracks of the night sky
A light goes out on the other side,
suicide, suicide, suidice
Oh I, Oh I, Oh I'm
treading on the tracks in the night time
It never really felt like the right time
suicide, suicide, suicide
I'm so fucking lonely beneath this,
narcisistic, cant keep a secret,
miscount sheep, I can't sleep, a misfit
Some say troubled, but some say sadistic,
Bruises my brother, one time or the other,
my skin felt counterfeit, silicone, rubber
Bruises my sister, skin pop the blister
dig deep resist the feeling when it hits you
Oh I, Oh I, Oh I've
fallen through the cracks of the night sky
A light goes out on the other side,
suicide, suicide, suidice
Oh I, Oh I, Oh I'm
treding on the tracks in the night time
It never really felt like the right time
suicide, suicide, suicide
[sample] Sick boi, sick boi, bitten by a tick boi
I feel like its not me its the world thats sick
I'm so fucking washed up and sea sick
masochistic kid with a split lip
six feet deep I can't eat im nervous
won't stay down 'cause my body purges
useless my mother, cant keep in my supper
skin so pale 'cause my cheeks leak colour
Truth is my father, you choose your karma
draw for the sword then drive through the armour
Oh I, Oh I, Oh I've
fallen through the cracks of the night sky
A light goes out on the other side,
suicide, suicide, suidice
Oh I, Oh I, Oh I'm
treding on the tracks in the night time
It never really felt like the right time
suicide, suicide, suicide
Suicide suicide suicide
Suicide suicide suicide
Suicide suicide suicide
Suicide suicide suicide
It's hard to take off from the ground when your wings are cut,
Your stomach burns when you're drinking from an empty cup,
You know the entire ocean came from my tear ducts?
I see the world through fibonacci sequences and Double Dutch
I guess there’s some that’s born lucky, there’s some that’s not
I tried to cut away my bitterness - hatchet job
I locked my youth in a trunk inside a pick up truck
Then dumped the whole thing over the same bridge the night you jumped
I think about that sometimes , vividly
What it felt like to look down and see tranquility
One sudden movement in a world of possibility
Only one movement to expose our fragility
I fucking miss you and I miss myself
I miss thinking that were indestructible as well
I miss chilling by the pier cave and kicking back
Wirth Callum, Hugo, Sagar, Justin, Stevie and the fuckin lads
I miss missing that, I numbed myself to close the gap,
I never even call em up the distance is my plaster cast,
The truth is that the day you jumped my childhood jumped too,
But I still can’t find the anger all I find is missing you
Man I miss you,
with all my rhymes
I picture running 5 minutes quicker, I'm right on time
I picture pulling you back over the edge and then were crying
And holding you my brother and telling you that it's fine
that’s not the way that I worked
Coz I was late like a jerk
There's not a day where I could find a way to break from the hurt
Your body missing so we never got to wave to the hearse
I hope your listening , I love you man, I miss you absurd
Fuck

Dude I literally don’t understand how you never miss for me. With every other artist I have obvious favorites and others I don’t vibe to. But, me personally, ya just never miss. Also, aside from the music, the artistry of this video is amazing. I’d watch an entire series in this style.

I'll be forever invested in everything Ren does. This song hits different..... My son turned me onto Ren in 2019 and I lost him recently....he was only 27...I tear up whenever I watch him now whether it's talking in an interview or singing. I wish we could go and see Ren play live together but that's just a dream now....In saying that, I guess that given he demanded "Dad...you MUST listen to this guy....he'll blow your mind" in a way he's with me whenever I listen to his music...and I do that alot lol. I know Ren is going through his own travails right now but i'd like him to know that his music has helped me immensely to get through the worst time in my life. Just because of the connection and the fact that I can think of my son in a happy way....something I never thought would be possible ever again. I listen to Ren's music and have happy thoughts rather than the torture I was experiencing when everything was very raw. There was a period then when I had to avoid photos & videos with Scott's voice. I've got past that now and Ren's music has played more than a small part in that. I kinda think i'm starting to ramble a bit so i'll leave it there. If you ever do happen to see this comment Ren....thank you from the bottom of my heart. You're very much in my thoughts as you go through your treatment. I hope you consider playing in Edinburgh one day so I can get to see you do what you do best. Much love from Scotland bro.🏴󠁧󠁢󠁳󠁣󠁴󠁿❤🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿

As a nurse i know people want to say dont talk about this but its a good sign when someone opens up about their thoughts about this. Ren thank you for this video and song. There's nothing wrong with feeling and opening up to let others know they can talk. I want them to talk before its too late. Thank you Ren

I'm a 46 year old male and this is the first song that's made me cry that isn't directly associated with a moment in my own life. Between 'Hi Ren" and this I've never encountered an artist that hits me in the soul so hard.

I'm a survivor of an attempt and I have to say that your music resonates with me. It's such a lonely, pain filled place to be, thinking about suicide, making the plan to end things. If someone had showed me your music back then I wouldnt have felt so alone. I doubt I would have followed through if id had even a bit of hope that things could be better. Im grateful to still be here and to have had the chance to do so much more with my life. PLEASE, never stop believing in yourself! You are reaching so many people with what you have created.

My 16 yr daughter has been suicidal for past 4 years. I haven't been able to really reach her , I've used anger, talking, coaching, and begging. I showed her this today we cried. This showed her there's 2 sides to suicide the person we loose & the person they loved in us that would go with them. Thank you Ren for being so vulnerable & valuable at the same time.

I lost my son to suicide 5 years ago. I have been considering my own for those 5 years due to this and my own battle with chronic pain. I found your music last week, Ren, and it saved me. You saved me. SOMEONE knows how I feel!

This song touches my heart. 2 of my brothers committed suicide, both before their mid 30s. I was suicidal from 10 years old until I finally got help at the age of 41. Abuse, domestic violence, murder, drug abuse, sexual abuse was all we knew growing up. I am so glad I made the choice to live and not die by my own hand. This song speaks to so many people and a huge hug to REN for pouring his heart and pain into this song and video. Peace to all of us who got left behind by a loved one. 😢❤

I lost my 15 year son to suicide last year… this is a powerful song Thank you Ren for bringing this into the world im so sorry for u and everyone going through the painful tragic hell that suicide brings us 🙏 let all our angels surround us to help us through I know my son is with me step by step but oh how I wish it wasn’t this way

Ren has to be the most exciting artist in Britain right now.

12 years and it’s every day that I miss my brother. Thank you for releasing your art. It helps and it heals. ❤❤❤❤❤

You're so far away and a stranger, yet you have touched my heart more intimately than most people in my life. Your music is a fire, a balm, a joy and torture. It's a beautiful and terrifying journey you've taken me on. Thank you

Today I want to write something beautiful and eloquent but I’ve been staring at my computer screen for the past 10 minutes blankly. So I’ll just write.
Today, the 1st of June is my friend Joe’s birthday.
I first met Joe when I was 8 years old, my friend Josh said I had to meet this guy, so we both walked over to his, it took about 10 minutes from my house. I was greeted by this kid covered head to toe in freckles, he grinned at us, climbed onto the back of his sofa and screamed “Swanton Bomb!” then front flipped off the top and landed right onto his back on a stone floor. He lay still for a moment, twitched a few times, then got up, grinned at us, brushed himself off, and did it again.
This was Joe. He’d do anything to make people laugh. He ended up becoming one of my best friends. He was there when we stole our first cigarettes out of his mums pack, way too young. He was there when I had my first kiss, with a girl twice my size on the back of the 42 bus. He was there when I first got so drunk I threw up in the woods after drinking as much white lightning Cider as we could. I was there when he did his first backflip on skates, and saw him do a 720 off of the pier cave, that moment became legendary.
Joe was the funny one in our friend group, he’d make us laugh till it hurt. No one had a bad word to say about him. It was impossible not to like him. Usually we put celebrities, athletes and actors on pedestals, turn them into role models and admire them from a far. The person I admired was Joe.
Him and Sagar knew every word to the songs id write, we’d get drunk at parties and they’d be singing along as loud as they could. It gave me a lot of confidence back then.
On Christmas Eve 2010 I was sitting in a pub with Joe, he’d been feeling low after a couple of consecutive break ups. He tried to check himself into a mental health outpatient facility a few weeks earlier but they turned him away because he didn’t have an appointment. He turned to me and said that sometimes he wished he could just walk into the sea and keep walking. He said it in a kind of half joking throw away comment type of way, then took a sip of his drink, walked over to the juke box and put Dig by Incubus on. If I knew that was the last time I’d see Joe id have hugged him, told him how much I loved him, how much I looked up to him, how much we all loved him, and I wouldn’t have left that pub. I didn’t know that, so I finished my drink, said happy Christmas and left.
Two nights after Christmas I got woken up by a phone call at 3am, it was my friend Ella. She told me Joe was on the Menai Bridge, a large suspension bridge connecting the main land to the isle of Anglesey where we lived. He’d been on the phone to her in tears saying goodbye. He told her to tell everyone he loved them. I pulled on my clothes as fast as I could and started running toward the bridge. It was up a hill. I lived about a ten minute walk away, I could run it in five. As I ran I started dialling then redialing his number. The line was busy, which was a good sign, it meant he was still on the phone to someone. As I got about halfway, the busy tone changed. It told me the line was out of service. I got a sinking feeling and picked up my speed. I arrived to the bridge minutes after I left my house. It was deafeningly quiet. I was the first person to arrive. I got there probably about 2 minutes too late.
Joe’s body was never found.
Initially we refused to believe he was gone. The coastguard came out that night, with boats, and helicopters. Me and my friends spent the next 10 days putting up missing posters everywhere we could, walking up and down beaches with flashlights, getting about 3 hours sleep a night. When you’re walking up and down a beach with a torch when its dark everything looks like a body. We still haven’t found Joe.
As his birthday came around, I wrote a song, freckled angels, a song I dedicated to Joe which I sang in front of his friends and family. A charity football match was put on for him, raising money for the RNLI where I won two bottles of wine in a raffle, I drank them both as quickly as I could, naturally, turned to my friend and probably slurred something along the lines of “This is the last time I ever drink” That was 12 years ago, I haven’t touched a drop of alcohol since.
My first ever album I named Freckled Angels in tribute of one of the best people I ever knew.
Skip forward some years. I’d been sitting on this song I wrote a few years ago. It always felt a little incomplete. It was going to be my next release, but I was dreading it because of this feeling of incompletion. I decided, very last minute, to do something about it. I sat by my piano, and the rest of the song fell out of me. I hadn’t thought about Joe in a little while, and the song initially wasn’t going to be about him, but the words all fell out of me. I wrote and recorded a whole 2 minutes extra, recording each part as I wrote it. Tears spewing out of my eyes pretty much the whole time, and decided not to do my usual thing of perfecting each line, I just recorded every line as it came.
During this campaign I will be raising money for the RNLI, the group of brave men and women who spent hours tirelessly looking for Joe after the night he went missing. I'll also be donating 50% of the profit on all copies of the 'Freckled Angels' album directly to Joes family as a nice surprise gift. I will include links to the RNLI donation page below where 100% of the money will go to support them, I will be travelling to the UK later this month to make a music video, and have carved out a couple of days where I will travel to my home town on the isle of Anglesey to present the royal national lifeboat institution with a cheque of all the money raised.
Turn on notifications for the video here: clip-share.net/video/n3JNtfi4Vb0/video.html
Raising money for RNLI :
www.justgiving.com/page/ren-gill-1685546882254?Link&/ren-gill-1685546882254&
Freckled Angels album: renmakesmerch.com/products/freckled-angels-cd
Presave Suic*de: found.ee/ren-suic-de

Englsih is not my native language so i'll do my best.
Thanks man, I've been in a depression for about 12 years, I fought as hard as I could but I've started considering suicide 6 month ago. With my last piece of life I asked for help but no one answered to my call. But i heard your song and it gave me enough energy to fight one last time and find the right people to help me and it worked. Now I have pills but not forever and i can live a new life. I know I own it to myself but you helped me so much. So thank you with all my still beating heart.

My daughter was just born on 06/13/23 and we named her Ren, it's a name that's kind of followed me around for a long time and I kept seeing it everywhere, I even used to have a cat named Ren years and years ago. Then when me and my daughter's dad got together we found your music and you're now one of our favorite artists and your music has gotten us through a lot of really hard times, especially me getting through treatment for substance abuse while I was pregnant so that I could have my daughter and her not have to live that life that I was living. Thank you for all the hope you've given us and keep up the good work.

Man this really does hit different to most modern music. The emotion being expressed is on a whole other level. it’s more than just music.

How am I only just discovering this now? This is absolutely breathtaking. Ren if you're reading this never stop creating and although you are deserving of fame and fortune never let it change you. ❤🧡💛💚💙💜

Holy shit. This made me well up, gave me goosebumps and I'm obsessed. Ren, I hope you realise how many people you've touched. Truly... You are a pioneer. You deserve the number one album ❤️🖤❤️

Tomorrow is the six year anniversary of losing my 20 year old child in similar circumstances. Time does not heal, it accommodates. Beautiful song Ren. Thank you.

Young man, I'm so amazed by you. What a wonderful song ....I hope it helps others step back from the edge!!! Love your bravery to share your loss and thereby give hope to others.

I needed this today. The hurt is real. Im still here. My god it hurts. But im staying here. 😢

I only found your music a couple months ago, but every lyric just verbalizes the thoughts, feelings, and experiences I have had. Like Hi Ren gives me goosebumps every time I listen to it. Been in and out of treatment for many years. I always eventually find myself back where I started, or worse. I’m still battling my demons. The pendulum is always swinging, but I won’t give up on that eternal dance. Your music gives me so much hope.

An absolute masterpiece ❤ this hits 😢 Thankyou Ren 🙏❤

This one hurts. Brings tears to my eyes. Thank you Ren

Brother…I haven’t cried since late 2006, after I hit my last roadside bomb in Iraq, and was flown to Washington DC, for a year of ineffective mental treatment.
I haven’t cried in 16 years…unable, or unwilling.
I listen to your music constantly while I’m out drinking, after once being 20 months sober.
As a writer myself, every time I hear one of your songs, I understand them a little bit more…
A couple weeks ago when I stopped a medication, my emotions came back…now…I can’t listen to you without crying.
I want you to know, you give people like myself permission to feel, to be pissed off, and accept whom we are. As human beings, or artists, and students of navigating our own minds.
You are truly loved and appreciated, brother…empathy doesn’t make us weak…it reminds us that what we do for ourselves, we do for others.
🤙🏻

My god, what a beautiful and painful piece. This song broke me down. You are such a gifted musician, story teller, and poet.

I found you and your music about a year ago with Violet's Tale. I was in a dark time then and you sorta just hit home and i fell in love with your message and your passion. You've helped me through some really tough times and I'd like to thank you. It's taken time for me to actually sit and listen to this song because I know what it's about and what it means to you. I'm so sorry for your loss and I really hope your friend is in a good place right now, watching you and seeing the man you've become. I'm having a few drinks right now, and one is going to be for you and yours. Keep doing what you're doing Ren. Even in the darkest times, we can always find the light

I have never witnessed anything that has given me goosebumps like this. This is truly a work of art.

I came here from a Sinéad o Connor video and someone said your monologue at the end of this was brilliant and got wrenching (nothing compares to you is her love song to her dead mother and she says she was thinking of her when she sang it) so I popped over to listen. You’re super talented. Reminded me of how I felt when I listened to Eminem back in the 90’s. Please take comfort and strength from their fans. You clearly see the consequences of Suic!de so I hope you stay for your family, friends and fans. God bless you ❤

Two days before you released this I was writing my own letter, but waited for my birthday because I was wanting to launch my own channel. Your release + Sam’s seemed like a gift to give myself more time to find the right words and perspectives to direct my voice. Sadly my chosen editor, a brilliant creative genius introducing me to see in a multitude of ways, such as one photo being a universe and blueberries in one moment. That moment for me made me fall further in love and in awe of her brilliant beautiful mind. Sadly even though I’d listened to this and absorbed it to save my own life, she had not internalized the same hope for a better future.
I’d dealt with mental illness challenges for over 30 years & chronic pain for almost 20 thereafter. She’d had been battling mental illness for almost 11 years and chronic pain for almost 4 years. I will always miss the mind that told me about the blueberry universe on the wall of the chronic pain clinic at children’s hospital so many years ago. When I have the words & ability to share our stories it will be a significant contribution towards my survival & that of my remaining family.

It feels like a privilege to be allowed so far into your heart Ren. I'm sorry for the pain you feel.

This is the rawest,most honest song I have ever heard. Thank you, Ren. Your honesty honors us.

I remember discovering you in a busking video a few years ago. Seeing how far you've come, and everything you've gone through on the way. The world is gonna know you. Make the ground shake, Ren!

love this track Ren, every song is a step in healing the wounds. I too lost a close friend to suicide, so I can relate to this song very much Ren. X

This song is so tragically beautiful Ren. I'm so sorry you've experienced such pain.

I am in awe of you Ren. The emotion and feeling just tumbles from the screen, from your words, from your voice straight into my heart. No other artist has ever touched me like you. You are simply amazing

45 years ago I drove my car off a bridge. Last week I contemplated an overdose the difference between now and then; I know the feeling will pass. Keep writing Ren, it's needed.

This really hit me, especially during the last part when Ren put his entire heart and soul into how he felt. An amazing song that has and will touch people like me.

Thank you for sharing your experiences and the pain and the way you share it. As much pain that is in this song, this is a piece that could save people. Mad respect and love.

Ren . Thank you for your words and music . You did suicide great . I’m a 61 year old veteran and I certainly wish you all the best . You help us realize we’re not alone .

Brought me to tears in the street brother, all of your music is so powerful but this one really got me ❤️🙏

I love this song so much, it brings up the worst points in my life life which is so difficult to carry around or even say out loud. Being affected by it but also feeling those urges at the worst points is a part of being human that I wish was given the kindness and openess you do justice to. Ren thank you, I don't know what kind of works you make in the future but this song is enough to shake off my apathy and try to face the world honestly. I hope you stand tall knowing the world is a much better place with you in it.

This is not a career, not a march to fame, this is a man's artist journey we get to follow 🙏❤️

Not a dry eye in the house. 💔🥺 GBNF to all our early fallen loved ones.
Bloody gorgeous tribute to your bro Ren. 💖 thank you for sharing this story with us.

I don't know
How to explain how right this is
How right he is
I'm 200% here for all of it
Thank you Ren for making Truth

YOU are really very very talented, my friend 💜

My god, Ren! Each time I listen to this I get more emotions…memories!
I love your music, what’s more is I love the movement we all are creating!!! ❤

7-22-23 it’s been the roughest few days since my brother took his own life. I’m lost. I’m broken. This song is hitting me beyond words. Hold your loved ones close. Rest in peace Chris. I miss you absurd.

Hi Ren. I’m a 55yo Veteran who suffers from PTSD,Major chronic depression,Bipolar disorder plus many physical issues. I cannot explain how much your music resonates in me. THANK YOU. Never give up your truth,you are helping people in ways that you and I cannot imagine . I pray for your strength to carry on in this disjointed world and for your happiness and success. Again THANK YOU. I lost 7 brothers in a single year from 4 different wars a while back I wish they had had the opportunity to hear this,maybe some of them would still be around. To all my veteran brothers and sisters out there never,give up I can tell you from my own personal struggles and attempts that there is hope and light on the other side I’ve seen and lived it. I love and pray for you all no matter where you served or who with . One foot in front of the other and NEVER give up,it’s what we do.

Thank you Ren! Your music is bringing many of us back to life!

Oh my... that smashed me right in the feels. Relatable Ren. Very relatable. Tears in my eyes for you and for me and for those we've lost. Big love for what you're doing brother!

A lyric has never hit me so hard as "what it felt like to look down and see tranquility, one sudden movement in a world of possibility" I was right back there in the moment of that consideration... Thank you for exposing so much not only for yourself but to help others drowning in the darkness

Powerful comments, sending much love and hope to all of you out there. Don't give up, there's always a way. ❤

In a surface-level world where all we see and hear is the facade..... your music speaks deeply. your refreshing and its obvious you're authentic...... and seeps out from every aspect. And I appreciate it.

You’re a beautiful soul Ren. Thank you for everything you do.

you are the most amazing artist i discovered in the last years! every time goose bumps when a new video comes up.... and thinking how can someone be so talented! just amazing!!!

Ren, the way you describe the writing process for this song it seems like it just flowed out so I don't want to suggest an intention that wasn't there.
That said, with this song I think you've done something amazing. A lot of sad music provides a way to feel our negative feelings which also provides a sense of catharsis. The first half of this song is like that. The music feels light and dreamy and the lyrics aren't overly blunt. It captures, to me, the almost detached and certainly isolated way we tend to think about our own misery. It becomes a world of its own. For anyone suffering and in regard to anyone who has suffered I am not saying those feelings aren't real but that we get wrapped up and smothered by them and they can build a barrier between us and life.
What is absolutely stunning here is the second half tearing the listener out of that reverie and pulling us down into reality again. To take a hard, uncompromising look at the devastation suic*de leaves in its wake. Not to blame or shame anyone for feeling this way. It's just a brutally, achingly honest expression of loss. And I think, for those who suffer with these feelings, it may force us to look at the real world we live in. The people around us who care. We are a part of this world and we all make an impression, we are all human and we all matter.
I understand that this is all deeply personal to you Ren and so I don't want to twist it into something more general. Rather I feel that your courage in sharing something so honestly may resonate with many in a unique way. Your honesty and vulnerability is a treasure and I am grateful that you habe decided to share it with the world.
Perhaps I've missed the mark and perhaps I have managed to sound foolish in doing so but I felt i had to share how this has touched and affected me.

Ren, you are so important to music culture right now....im speechless! The monologue had me properly choked. I've lost 3 friends to suicide in my life, and this shit hit hard 💔

Its been a week since I listened to "Hi Ren". With someone that also has a autoimmune issues (Hashimoto's, Idiopathic uticaria, and a few doctors leaning to Lupus), ADHD, and the depression/anxiety that follows your music hit me hard. This song, hi ren, and so many other amazing pieces you made are therapeutic.

What an amazing song and the video is just wow! You are brilliant. x

20 years of Army baggage, some lines hit me like a tuning fork that makes so l;oud it makes me grit my teeth to listen as it hits spot on well past the comfort zone. Beautiful.

I can really relate to all of your lyrics. Love your music. You are an creator

Just gets better and better and better. Such fearless music, wonderful stuff.

Damn, another Ren song that reaches down into the darkest parts of my soul.

This hits deep, Ren is such a musical genius

This song was released on what would've been my son Elijah's 24th birthday. He took his own life on September 24, 2021. Ren your music touches me, moves me. Your honesty helps me heal. So thankful that you exist.....

I dont know how I survived without you Ren. You're helping so many of us. Love you so much man 🖤

Mate, I have only recently stumbled across you music, and I have gone down the rabbit hole and listened to everything you have done... and I am just blown away. You are an absolutely amazing artist, each song takes you on a journey and grabs you and pulls you in. After hours (in around 100hrs at this point!) I listened to sickboi and then found out about your horrible journey with misdiagnosed Lymes disease. I am now 48 this year, was misdiagnosed in 2012 and had pretty much the same journey as you, unfortunately. Now have crippling Rhumatoid Arthritis and only recently found the right mix of tablets for Lymes management and now an injection every 2 weeks which has changed my life . Keep on keeping on, and doing what you are doing. It will come good mate, I will be keeping everything crossed that it is soon. You are an inspiration and Welsh as well 🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿🏴󠁧󠁢󠁷󠁬󠁳󠁿. Sorry for the wall of text....but I had to let you know how your music is touching people all over the world. Peace Ren ✌️

I lost my friend 2 years ago. I still feel it... or the absence of... or whatever that feeling is. Thank you for this.

So damn creative. And this is raw. I like Ren's music with all my heart.

I haven’t cried in so long and you broke me with this won man. Keep doing what you do it’s keeping me awake and alive 🖤

The honesty in your emotion is utterly vital. You’re doing something hugely important, Ren.

This song hits hard. It allows me to process and feel emotions i try to suppress. Thank you for sharing.

A friend of mine recommended this song to me today. The emotion in your voice, especially during the last part accompanied by piano, gives me chills. Sorry for your loss❤

I had to what a couple days to listen to this song I knew it was going to bring tears I can only imagine what it was like to write it your such an inspiration ren thank you❤

Never have I found an artist that speaks the fluid words of pain I hold inside . You saved me. Your words your music your story. Thank you.

Man that last part was a real punch in the gut, what a song. So raw, just fucking incredible YET AGAIN

Everyones crying and full of love at the same time.. ❤ Rennnnnn!! Thanks so much for everything you do. You will save lives with this song.

So much depth to this song as usual😍 stay strong 🙏

Hi Ren, Your music is amazing ! You're such a strong human being going through what you have and your daily struggles. You remind me every day that I'm not alone and if you can do life, I can do life! Thank you for being you. Keep doing you!

This world needs you Ren, and you need all of us in your world❤

Holy crap, just wow, that hits hard man. That last minute and a half had tears rolling out my eyes. I would love to hear an album with more guitar and piano in the future.

You never, ever miss. Your talent is fucking endless x

Your an absolute legend my brother. Because of you, now we all know Joe, and his memory will forever live on. I’m certain he would be so proud of you

You truly are gifted, to bring that much emotion through a song and place it into us takes something really special.

Time to add this to my sad playlist. I shouldn't keep my sorrow inside but this definitely helps me not get 'destructive'

as a person who has gone through this by losing my own brother to suicide this one is one of my favorites by ren and its a very big and meaningful message form me. respect to you ren. youre the one thats going to help alot of people and you already are doing so. you have my full respect.

I’ve never related to persons music like this before every song I listen to hits home thanks for everything you do and I sincerely hope you know much you’ve changed people lives for the better, thank you for all that you do and I hope nothing but the best for you and hope someday I’ll be able to return the favour

Ren, I just want to say thank you for wearing your heart on your sleeve. This is so powerful, the last verse is just everything. Thank you, thank you 🙏

Hi Ren…I’m sorry you lost your friend. I lost my son. He would’ve loved your music! Thank you for writing such a beautiful song. You will save lives with your art ❤

Ren, man. Thankyou. Your music really resonates with me. I've shown your stuff to friends. They don't all get it but all seem to respect it. I struggle daily although everything is great. I feel guilty af. I wish that I could be an open book like you. I can't.

So beautiful, so sad. I’ve lost friends….almost lost my sister to this. It never gets easier to deal with…. Ren, I just want to give you a hug to say there was nothing you could have done to save Joe….I’m sorry you’ve had to deal with the pain and guilt of thinking you could have done things differently….love what you do in your music…..hope you continue to bring hard subjects to light……

This is amazing, powerful and heartbreaking. The beats during the first half are really excellent; I like how the kick drum holds down the pulse while the snare (or clacks, I guess) don't really hit the backbeat but play more of a Samba or something. It's catchy and super-creative.

Your talent is stunning, the lyrics, the twists the turns,the remix’s, the fusion of bits of your other stuff that always seem to fit, the different types of music you use, the way you wear your heart on your sleeve and your beautiful transparency

Ren, I am a 52 year old schizophrenic. There are things that I would love to share and say to you but I am terrified of the internet so I will just say this; When I was in my teens (before meds and therapy) I had decided to take my own life. One young man in one of my classes, not a boy I knew personally, figured it out and patiently but determined would not let me go home until I promised that I wouldn't. After several hours of me dodging the truth and denying his accusations I finally, just to get rid of him, I bitterly swore to him that I would never take my own life. I kept my promise. Several years later he died of cancer and I often think of him knowing that because of him, I still draw breath to this day. Every time I smile, laugh, celebrate my birthday I think of him and quietly in my heart dedicate it all to him. You are so profoundly brave to me. I see his fire and passion to help in you. I relate to so much of your work and I find it inspiring and validating. I just want to say that from one human being to another, I see you, I feel it all too, I love you like a brother, and thank you for seflessly giving so deeply of yourself so brazenly to the masses to reach ones like me. 💞

Absolutely INCREDIBLE , very moving. Great work.

I bawl my eyes out every time. I lost a friend like that and as a child I did not believe. I still carry it to this day. I understand, man. You understand.

Watched a ton of reactions, watched this as it premiered, lyrically fantastic, wish more people didn’t skip over the like “ draw for the sword then drive through the armor” I’m so beyond impressed with you and your art I’m so excited for the ride to come!!

I've listened to this 10+ times today, grieving the loss of three loved ones in just the last few months, this has really let me just sit and feel everything today. Sometimes it's just hard to let yourself feel, but listening to this opened the emotional floodgates. Thank you for that.