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Times I should've realized I was autistic

  • Published on May 11, 2022 veröffentlicht
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  • illymation
    illymation  16 days ago +8719

    hi I’m sorry I didn’t do a good job explaining what I meant when it came to self diagnosis - it is valid and I self-dx’d myself for the longest time because my past therapist (who was not educated on autism at all) refused to have me evaluated because she said I “didn’t look autistic.” I saw a new psych who actually studies autism, and I was properly diagnosed. The point I meant to make was: self diagnosing and faking a disability are two different things that I feel become conflated by others who aren’t in our position - because they have access to diagnostics and doctors who listen. And I only “agree” that self diagnosing is wrong if someone is knowingly faking a disability. I used the fake service dog scenario to illustrate this because this is a common issue my friend in the video experiences way too often: people claiming to need a service dog, so they buy a fake vest online, put it on their untrained pet, and that untrained pet will attack and pick fights with my friend’s service dog, sometimes resulting in her and her actual service dog getting denied service places. This is the behavior I’m against- KNOWINGLY faking a disability; not self diagnosing. Thanks!

    • Roopnarine Singh
      Roopnarine Singh 12 hours ago

      @illymation it is on steam

    • Roopnarine Singh
      Roopnarine Singh 12 hours ago

      @illymation hey can you play Just shapes and beats

    • Roxanne Harris
      Roxanne Harris 13 hours ago

      Yeah I hate jeans to.

    • Black Panther
      Black Panther Day ago

      Lilly as someone who’s also on the spectrum as well I’ve been doing pretty okay with my life I have high functioning autism and I’ve learned to accept it and I like it but I don’t know what my symptoms are exactly but I was diagnosed with high functioning autism when I was five or seven and I’m 24 now and I have a pretty great impact on this world of ours also thank you for always being there for us your so laidback funny sweet kind caring outgoing friendly intelligent independent and I love your videos drawings and animations thank you again and remember to always stay positive safe and strong and be the hero of your own story Lilly😇😊💛🧡

    • H0PL3$$
      H0PL3$$  Day ago

      @Jose Franco You sure about that? Some people self diagnose and it turned out that they actually had it. All I'm sayin is your not 100% right....

  • Hopeless Peaches
    Hopeless Peaches 16 days ago +7224

    I can relate to needing headphones and getting weirded out at specific things. My parents used to keep asking why I needed headphones everywhere I went, but that's because they didn't see that when I was alone walking the dog, or on the train, the sounds of other people or sounds of rustling really got me upset and wanna escape home OOF.
    I don't know if that means I have autism per say, but I can relate to a good chunk of this video. But I also know I've had untreated depression since I was little, and got a prognosis for ADHD, so as you said: similar symptoms might be baking different types of cake.

  • Not Yoshé
    Not Yoshé 9 days ago +224

    I’m autistic too, and I’m so glad that I have someone as successful and talented as you to relate to. Autism comes in all shapes and sizes; people make hurtful stereotypes about us like that we’re “retarded,” or “autistic people are dumb.” I have trouble with social interaction a lot, and I tried to do stuff that other people did. Autism isn’t all about not making eye contact or social interaction; autism is all about people who are different and weird in their own way. Honestly, I wouldn’t cure my autism because it’s what makes me special and different. Keep being you, Lily, because anyone who thinks being you isn’t okay, they should definitely get a slap in the face. ❤️

  • yemiravity
    yemiravity 5 days ago +5

    Hey, I'm not gonna get all sappy and tell my life story here, but I'd just like to say thank you so much for making this video. It really means a lot to me.

  • translinuxcat
    translinuxcat 9 days ago +86

    as a white girl who was perceived as male by herself and everyone around her for 14 years of her life before her egg cracked, obviously i dont relate to the experiences of others, but since my autism was never talked abuot that much (i forgot i had it until i was 11 years old) i've had this weird self discovery of "oh that's an autism thing? that's another autism thing? that's an adhd thing? how many things in my life was related to this???" neurodivergence is truly a life long neil cicierega, you dont know it by name, but it's responsible for literally everything you remember

    • TheRealFanmaster
      TheRealFanmaster 4 days ago +6

      Well I've never heard Neil Cicierega be used as a metaphor before, but I mean, you're analogy isn't wrong.

  • Meg on Cloud9
    Meg on Cloud9 7 days ago +42

    “All they see is the hyper, over- talkative and forgetful kid who for once Is sat still and quiet”- I FELT THAT SO MUCH- I have and probably always will be an excessive talker, I am actually hyperverbal and when I’m overwhelmed go hyperverbal sometimes (which means i essentially speed up and physically can not stop talking or have to force myself to stop talking- talking is a stim for me too. But it feels like I’m on a runaway train and I’m about to crash but I also can not stop talking and it’s exhausting. I have also gone non-verbal too at times but I mostly go hyperverbal. But yeah I didn’t think I could be autistic because I am “good at socialising” - yeah turns out jumping in (and interrupting people) rambling and talking AT people because I don’t need them to talk back I just need to talk, missing every social cue there is to miss (and even when I picked them up didn’t understand- or I know what they are I just don’t know why or how to process it. It’s a little more complex but yeah not getting social cues verbal and non- verbal is a big issue) being either way “too loud” or “too quiet” (because idk what the appropriate volume is nor can I control it) is not actually socialising 😂- and I am in fact not good at it. I talk a lot. But not good at Linear conversation flow where I have to read a bunch of social cues that i don’t understand and am expected to know and also expected to make eye contact and everything else.
    Anyways loved this video but also I realised that like most of my friends are neurodivergent, (and my girlfriend is autistic) and like so many of family I think like no one is diagnosed but I feel like most of us should be

  • 🎗 ordinary extraordinary 🎗

    i heard someone tell a girl with asd, “well, you don’t ACT autistic” and she just went, “Oh sorry! One second.” and then started hitting her head while listing off train facts. 10/10 response

    • Michael Daigle
      Michael Daigle 8 days ago +4

      @eenisoo I'm a very straight looking man. I don't pluck my eyebrows, I don't get my hair done, my beard is wild, and I wear very plain, cheap clothes. Black hanes T-shirt, black jeans. My voice is fairly deep unless I'm super excited about something. I don't get into relationships for personal reasons. When most people learn of my sexuality they are VERY surprised. 10 times out of 10. Most people just kind of assume you're a cis male if you don't prance around in rainbow shit and speak in a high pitched melodic voice.

    • Mario Mastr
      Mario Mastr 10 days ago

      @eenisoo 😮😮

    • Itzstayxd
      Itzstayxd 12 days ago +3

      @Nooby ツ ong

    • Nooby ツ
      Nooby ツ 12 days ago +3

      L + bozo + razio + skill issue + cope + no bches

  • chrisadeth
    chrisadeth 6 days ago +10

    The way my autism shines thru is in my social interactions. I stutter, I fumble, I say weird things, often without thinking. The overstimulation issue doesn't often come into play, but it does every now and then, such as concerts or... trying to use a sharpie on paper *shudder*.
    I'm also very disorganized.
    I've never seen my official diagnosis, but when my mom first told me I was autistic as a young teen, suddenly everything started to click.

  • CoronaFetish
    CoronaFetish 6 days ago +17

    this makes... a lot of sense, like actually, I knew there was a spectrum but I didn't know that the spectrum of autism varied that much. Also I'm like 90% sure I have ADHD, but I don't want to self diagnose until a therapist or someone actually confirms it. (PS) I also hate washing dishes, it just makes me wanna freak out, so your not alone on that one :D

  • Foxy_boi623
    Foxy_boi623 7 days ago +1

    I saw eda the owl lady in this part 6:25 :kid version if eda the owl lady

  • Clara Bishop
    Clara Bishop 9 days ago +1

    Dude, I relate to the vast majority of this on a deep, spiritual level. I didn't realize I was autistic until I was 20. It was rough working so hard to be "normal" but then having no friends anyway and having no clue why.

  • abelina sabrina
    abelina sabrina 15 days ago +773

    Love you little lady ❤️

  • Zehra E
    Zehra E 9 days ago +1


  • strawberry cow beats
    strawberry cow beats 10 days ago +1

    Did anyone else notice Eda the owl lady in some scenes?

  • letoriousCollin
    letoriousCollin 10 days ago +1

    yeah i got ADHD to and all it really does to me is just make me not be able to concentrate and be dumb (the second one might just be me)

  • Blaze Wadley
    Blaze Wadley 6 days ago +7

    Omg this is so relatable, I am more on the "high functioning" part of the autism spectrum(also have adhd and anxiety) and most people think I'm just weird. Knowing that I'm not the only one with these issues feels nice.

  • Vixy
    Vixy 15 days ago +1207

    “It’s like the *be yourself* quote applied to everyone but me”
    Honestly that hit very close to home. I’ve always been labled as annoying and I never understood alot of things the way other people did, I get called stupid and/or slow for not understanding questions or following conversations properly/differently. I always thought maybe I had some sort of mental problem with me. Maybe I do, I don’t know. I’ve never been diagnosed with anything (yet)

    • The Bread
      The Bread 8 days ago

      @v1ctor1a_4444 I'm not diagonosed and I dont think I'm autistic but that was literally me when I went to school all of those comments omg.. I'm so sorry you had to go through that too :(

    • The Bread
      The Bread 8 days ago

      @The Gamer FACTSS SAY IT LOUDER!!

    • The Bread
      The Bread 8 days ago +1


    • Khloe G
      Khloe G 9 days ago

      @Nooby ツ what’s your problem??

    • Jclaypotch
      Jclaypotch 12 days ago

      I hear that. People tend to forget that everyone is different but yet some still strive.

  • Ashton Snapp
    Ashton Snapp 10 days ago +18

    I am an autism (diagnosed Summer 2011), and my cousin (who is also an autism) once referred to me as a jelly bean.
    I shall embrace this new identity.
    *I AM BEAN*

  • No U
    No U 6 days ago +6

    I'm sitting here in absolute shock because I've never heard of someone having such similar symptoms to me. Being terrified of flushing toilets, especially automatic ones, affects me to this day. Being terrified by loud noises, too. Guess who's going to finally email her doctor about getting evaluated :))
    Tysm illy for sharing your experience. I cannot believe someone else has experienced these same phobias that impede daily life. I really am not alone

  • lost things
    lost things 10 days ago +1

    As a multidisabled person who also has autism, I see a lot of people struggle with connecting to their identity as a disabled person. This video did such a great job talking about autism as a disability with the human rights model of disability that I hope more people can understand how important disability community is!

  • 🦴PIXIE🍰
    🦴PIXIE🍰 9 days ago +18

    I can’t believe how relatable the masking part was. I was friends with dirty minded friends and I was one of the incont one and I hated being left out and I tried to mask them, and I got called toxic by them, I felt sad so I tried myself and I got left out.

  • TimeBucks
    TimeBucks 15 days ago +201

    This video is wonderful

  • Lps EnderArt
    Lps EnderArt 8 days ago +6

    I have almost all of the things mentioned in the video. I just started improving with some of the things after years. For me, it's sensory processing disorder, but I am close to the spectrum for autism. Also, I love your videos, and you are amazing :3

  • Caramel Bloom
    Caramel Bloom 9 days ago +20

    I just got diagnosed with ADHD, and the way you talk about how you think and act differently reminds me of how I feel about my adhd

  • Emily Matusz
    Emily Matusz 2 days ago +2

    My autism was spotted at a really young age (4), however I wasnt officially diagnosed until I was 14! It was simply put as being overly dramatic despite the signs. This video was super relatable and really fun to watch; thanks for sharing!

  • Wimmie's World
    Wimmie's World 9 days ago +15

    I’ve always had sensory issues with noise and clothing and used to have to specifically make every conversation and task about The Wizard of Oz because that was the only way to get me invested. It’s interesting seeing these experiences years after the fact and starting to see the signs. Thank you so much for this video! I think it’ll help more folks than you’ll ever know.

  • AnJelloProductions
    AnJelloProductions 16 days ago +564

    I love how “non traditional” topics are being talked about by Illy. I definitely find these videos more personal and really helps those who can compare. This SHOULD be normal conversations.
    Amazing video and thank you for using your platform as a bigger voice for those who cannot!

  • lunaa
    lunaa Day ago +2

    This was such an eye opening video for me, my entire life I have always felt something was wrong or that I was different from everyone else. I always tried to talk to my mom about it and ask if I could talk to someone or see a doctor to get properly diagnosed with whatever I have but her first initial reaction was "What? You don't need that." (she herself is a therapist). After that I didn't talk about it or even think about it till bottling it in got so much that I was on the brink of just completely giving up. I had finally gotten the courage to talk to her about how I really feel and everything I go through on a daily basis. Once I gave her all these things that were going on in my head and other things going on she finally listened and I now have an appointment with my doctor, and during my appointment I really want to talk about the things I have experienced that are very similar to those in this video. Thank you for being so open on these topics and sharing your experiences.

  • [ E R R O R ]
    [ E R R O R ] 7 days ago +7

    Getting diagnosed with ADHD is _weird_ like you walk into the office of a dude with a medical degree and they say "yeah you got diet autism" and the cure is to microdose meth

  • SaltyHQ
    SaltyHQ 2 days ago +1

    I would explain the feeling of autism like a constant haze, warping, dulling and amplifying stimuli till it becomes unbearable for a normal human being.
    It's as simple as that, though what makes it difficult is how the brain reacts to that situation.
    This leads to a sorts of issues like low social skills, depression, low motor skills, derealization attacks, anger issues and more.

  • Yuki Senmatsu
    Yuki Senmatsu 10 days ago +6

    I found out I had autism when I was around 13 or 14. Yeah, THAT late. I think either my parents or my elementary school speech therapist did tell me, but I had Patrick Star IQ where I didn't pay much attention to that. So yeah back then, I was in-between the middle and lower part of the spectrum until I was around 25-26 hell, I was in a homeroom ran by the S.T.E.P.S program with kids that was autistic when I was in highschool. While I was the smartest in there, I still needed a bit of help with very few things. I also hated doing the dishes back when I was doing some volunteer work at Antonio's, but since I'm now older, I don't mind doing that at all

  • LozFanXV
    LozFanXV 12 days ago +765

    “It felt like the be yourself quote applied to everyone but me.”
    As someone who has ADHD and many overlapping symptoms with autism (sensitivity to certain sounds and bright lights, hyperfixations, auditory processing disorder, overly emotional, stimming.) That hit me hard. The amount of times I was the "weird" girl during school was a lot, and I found myself either the target of pranks, or left out of social events happening. And I sometimes find myself still struggling with feeling accepted nowadays.

    • Angel H
      Angel H 3 days ago

      Yeah same here, that line really resonated lol

    • Rhino_Raine
      Rhino_Raine 4 days ago +2

      "the best way to get friends is tojust be yourself" yeah i tried that and it didnt work, funny how as soon as i stopped being myself i actually got some

    • ZoellaFischerVA
      ZoellaFischerVA 5 days ago

      i forced myself to change into someone more socially acceptable over the years
      While it's a little sad, i do like the new me. I'm cool lol, and i still have my unique way of thinking

    • Koni GamingGR
      Koni GamingGR 6 days ago

      im pretty sure this isnt an article..

  • M H
    M H 6 days ago +2

    Omg… I also got adhd and am on the spectrum and never felt to not alone 🥺.. thanks for sharing your experience means a lot for me and hopefully many other ppl

  • The Gross Demon
    The Gross Demon 10 days ago +10

    More autistic friends would be fun. I need more literal people in my life lol. It gets so tiresome having to think if people are being literal or hyperbolic, a simple convo would be great for once lol. Hell even getting to talk to someone that's passionate about anything!

  • Ruby Redfort
    Ruby Redfort Day ago

    I love how while everything you're saying is extremely relatable to me as an autistic person, at the same time I'm constantly getting excited about seeing various favorite hyperfixations as easter eggs in this (and well, all of them really) video, but especially this one because it had The Owl House Easter eggs this time and that's my current hyperfixation!
    So I'm sitting here nodding my head being like 😒 when the kid says 'wELL yOu DoN't LoOk AuTiStiC' and then one second later I'm like 🤩 'EDA!'.

  • Shoyu Becca
    Shoyu Becca 9 days ago +7

    Even though you described my childhood down to a tee, I still have a hard time believing I'm autistic. I'm so used to believing that there's nothing wrong with me. I'm 26 and still trying really hard to fit into the "strong black woman" stereotype that my mom laid out for me.

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    • Cook
      Cook 6 days ago

      Or adult

    • Cook
      Cook 6 days ago

      Correct you have trouble acclimating to a neurotypical society not your fault kid

  • LovelyRadiant Unicorn

    I have autism too. I’m very glad that someone is talking about it even if “it’s not the most perfect description” it’s just nice to know someone else is talking about it. Maybe someday I should do the same… Autism needs to be discussed more honestly. Hell, mental disorders really need at least more attention. Not that anything is wrong with any of them, but it should just be discussed more. Especially because Autism is rather common, idk about the case for ADHD but still.

  • autumncolourss
    autumncolourss 2 days ago

    I’m so happy to see you sharing this experience!! It makes me so much more confident that one of my biggest inspirations has had similar experiences to me ❤️ I was recently diagnosed with both ADHD and ASD (and let’s just say it took a while) and the way you explain it here is great, especially sensory overload and shutdowns. Keep rockin’!

  • Adrizoe Lumity Winter and Sugarsock Beyond!

    This video means a lot. As someone who is also autistic and has aspergers I couldn't handle when things got too loud or overwhelming. So I wore headphones while I did my work when I was little. I got bullied for my stimming and being happy all the time when I was having a good day. And when people bullied me. I'd cry a lot or get really angry. And as I got older I became much more sensitive. So whenever I was crying or at a breaking point. Others made fun of me to where I wanted to just be left alone. No one should be judged for being autistic or having ADHD. Ect. They should be respected and accepted like anyone else.

  • alex
    alex 9 days ago +6

    I was diagnosed with autism in 2014, however I’m lucky to be diagnosed. In the UK, it’s hard to get a diagnosis due to the circus of NHS, so I sympathise with those who had experiences like yours.

  • Nick Chambers
    Nick Chambers 14 days ago +304

    I loved the owl house references! And thank you for bringing up the “it’s not just young white boys” part. It ignores so many other people, especially when someone’s looking to be diagnosed as an adult. Our needs change as we grow, and an adult who has trouble with socializing would be able to mask or adapt more than, say, a six year old. Our struggles still exist, they’re just sometimes harder to see

    • Euphemia Lyra Eyre
      Euphemia Lyra Eyre 10 days ago

      @Anvi oh I think it might be a fushion of Mei and Totoro, but it was in the totoro bus stop setting.

    • Anvi
      Anvi 10 days ago

      @Euphemia Lyra Eyre i thought that was mei? do you mean the red panda? or maybe i didn't catch totoro

    • Pesterbot
      Pesterbot 12 days ago +1

      and a bluey reference! :DD

    • Euphemia Lyra Eyre
      Euphemia Lyra Eyre 12 days ago +1

      And steven universe references, and totoro.

    • Anvi
      Anvi 12 days ago +3

      I do too lol. Did you see the latest episode? I saw young Eda somewhere in this video

  • bouncey steve
    bouncey steve 3 days ago +1

    I'm also on the spectrum and I was lucky to be in a private school full of accepting people, except for middle school when my autism helper verbally abused me, and I haven't been outside in months. Still really good to see your on the spectrum also though.

  • The Pokemon Guy
    The Pokemon Guy 4 days ago +2

    As someone who has always had quite high functioning autism I get a lot of crap about not being autistic, I was diagnosed very early, (3 or 4) it was because I didn’t talk at the time (and didn’t till I was 5 and now I don’t shut up) and I had another thing where I couldn’t pick anything up and it would drop out of my hands (that wasn’t autism but anyway) and my mother was quite concerned, and I had a 1 to 1 therapy till I was 5, I also ended up in a school for special needs kids (low and high functioning, autism, adhd, etc.)
    Also, autism and adhd are not the same!!!! It’s so annoying when people lump the two together, no!! Autism is a wide spectrum while generally effects social interactions, sensory overload among other things
    Adhd is a condition which I believe gives you a heightened state of alertness and effects your focus (I don’t have adhd so if anyone wants to clarify that they can)
    My things are eye contact and social interactions, more specifically I will go off topic about things which no one was talking about and made things awkward
    Honestly I have never had sensory overload, I don’t know why I just don’t get overwhelmed with loud noises or gooey/weird substances, after all it is a spectrum.
    Thanks if you read the whole comment, I don’t tend to comment a lot but whenever I see a creator talk about autism it peeks my intreat because it’s relatable and I like to talk about my symptoms.

  • Olivia drinkwine
    Olivia drinkwine 8 days ago +6

    As someone on the spectrum who got bullied and taken advantaged off so many times when I was in school. Thank you for explaining autism and sharing your experiences.

  • FabulousSlob
    FabulousSlob 10 days ago +11

    I felt that part about the jeans. Also my brother sometimes makes those dark humored sarcastic remarks that I used to take seriously. At this point I just assume that anything horribly rascist he says is his sarcasm. Although my parents also fell for it a few times. Maybe he really DOES have a too-serious voice for sarcasm!

    • FabulousSlob
      FabulousSlob Day ago

      @Russian Русский Thing is, sometimes, not really, just a little, I still wonder if maybe he in some cases pulls a "just a prank sis" with his Jokes. I'm not sure what I mean to say right now, either way it's just not funny.

    • Russian Русский
      Russian Русский 6 days ago +1

      I feel ya! My parents make somewhat racist jokes (which was acceptable in the USSR, where they grew up, so they don't see anything wrong with it), and I once confronted them, thinking them hated all nationalities ever. Apparently not

  • Official Cat Lover
    Official Cat Lover 11 days ago +1

    the one symptom that has always been thing for me is hearing. I’m so sensitive to little noises and sometimes hear things others don’t or think things are way too loud when others say it’s not. i had to start homeschool because i was autistic. i was the shy kid, i had one solid friend all throughout public school and homeschool.
    i’ve overcome a lot of the sensory issues but i’m still working on others.
    also i share the cat obsession thing

  • 27 rats in a trenchcoat

    I can't explain how happy this makes me!!!
    The whole time I was just waiting for you to say something wildly incorrect or use puzzle piece imagery but you didn't! And honestly I relate so much to your childhood stories growing up autistic (or in my case autistic and ADHD) is not fun.
    I'm so happy, there's so much misinformation about autism and so many well-meaning people unknowingly spreading misinformation that it's such a breath of fresh air to see someone explain it so well :D

  • Luke Zamparelli
    Luke Zamparelli Day ago

    I literally had everything that happened to happen to me, and it still happens.

  • Jibley
    Jibley 12 hours ago

    Finally, found a video that perfectly captures this subject. Now I legitimately feel better with my diagnosis, thanks illy :)

  • eLL cartoons
    eLL cartoons 16 days ago +1347

    This video is EVERYTHING. I seriously appreciate you using your platform to bring so much more awareness to us awesome weirdos!!! ❤️🙃🥳 Your toons are the best 😭🙌🏼 P.S. I WILL NEVER DO THE DISHES WITHOUT GLOVES.

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      TheAnimationNation 15 days ago


    • WingDingfontbro67 Null
      WingDingfontbro67 Null 15 days ago +2

      Who doesn’t? I dont want crap water in my hands who wants that getting all in their nails and oh god I touched my face because I needed to scratch my nose and now it’s in my face. You can see how this goes down the drain very quickly,

    • Sitharos
      Sitharos 15 days ago +1

      Hey Ell! Love sweet potato! 😃

  • Tamzin Molloy
    Tamzin Molloy 9 days ago +1

    Omg! Thank you so much for making this video! I've been on the spectrum since i was little and my younger brother too and am still going through some tough things with it, but I accept and like being weird too! I struggled so much in high school and could barely fit in with my autism but now I'm at uni and am better than ever!! New friends and pursuing what I love! Animation!!
    So thank you illy!!

  • Mitchie Mari
    Mitchie Mari 3 days ago

    As someone with a little brother with autism, I greatly appreciate this video. I'm always explaining to people that he's not "weird", just a little different. He's such a smart and sweet little kid, I worry about his future sometimes with all the bullies out there. I hope this video will help others see autistic people in a better light, and educate them more.

  • Willow the Tree
    Willow the Tree 4 days ago

    I relate to this video so much. All my life I've struggled with severe "panic attacks" that I've recently learned are actually autistic meltdowns, as well as sensory overload and a bunch of other symptoms you've mentioned. It was only last month that I realized I'm probably autistic (during autism awareness month haha). I'm going to be evaluated in a few weeks and I'm unnecessarily terrified and having a bit of an existential crisis because I'm worried I'm not "autistic enough" to be autistic if that makes sense? I've been trying to research stuff about autism to learn more about myself, and this is by far the most helpful video I've found. It honestly makes me feel so seen because instead of just reading facts off an article I can relate on a very personal level to your experiences with autism. And for once in my life I'm not going to delete this comment because it's written weirdly because that's okay.
    Also, love the Owl House references, those just sweetened the deal

  • Rey Kenobi
    Rey Kenobi 10 days ago +1

    To be honest, I also wondered if there was something else that differed me from others. I also had no friends growing up and I was being isolated and bullied for reasons I still can’t seem to remember.

  • Figgity Jones
    Figgity Jones 16 days ago +272

    I also recently realized I was on the spectrum. Even though I was literally told by my college counselor out of the blue on like my first day with her, it still took me like 4 years to finally get it because I just had so little understanding of what ASD is. Still learning more and more everyday 😊

    • 𝐍𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭
      𝐍𝐢𝐠𝐡𝐭 16 days ago

      Lol yeah!

    • Inês Costa
      Inês Costa 16 days ago

      I was also told recently about my diagnosis even tho I went to therapy as a toddler and I'm rooting for u.
      I hope u realize that for some reason you are living and that no matter what disorder you may have,you are worthy to experience your life to the fullest just like the other ppl
      btw thx for the positive comment,I wouldn't be able to write such a short but powerful comment

    • Diamond Kone
      Diamond Kone 16 days ago +3

      That's great to hear. Some signs may not be as obvious as we think, and we are still exploring everyday. I'm glad to see you're supporting yourself and not letting it get to you. Staying positive is sometimes the best medication, have a great day! :)

  • Toad Soup
    Toad Soup Day ago

    Thank you so much for making this, this makes me feel so valid :((

  • Joke_Character
    Joke_Character Day ago

    I don't have a diagnosis but I'm pretty positive I am, and like I was like "Oh I'm AFAB so it's harder to tell" or whatever
    When I was in school all the schools I went to (until Highschool) told my father that he should get me diagnosed, my first job my manager came to me and told me it would be really helpful if I told him I was "slow" so he could know what I needed, when I told my mom I thought I might be she was like "that makes a lot of sense" and when I asked a friend what she would think if I said I was she said that she thought so
    So I'm like 98% sure that I'm not just autistic but like, outside of my father who just decided I wasn't, everyone else could tell and knew before I even thought about it

  • Minna S
    Minna S 17 hours ago

    I’ve got three boys. The oldest was diagnosed with adhd about a year ago. The youngest was too about the same time. (The middle boy is “normal”) But we noticed something else was going on. Now he got also the diagnosis of autism/Asperger’s. And he’s being bullied so much (-“because he’s super sensitive and take everything seriously”)he’s afraid of even going alone in our backyard and sleeping alone.
    If any of you reading this have tips and ideas, I’m super grateful!
    He’s in therapy. That’s the only thing I thought could help him. And he loves being with his therapist. But more ideas are always welcome. Thank you! ❤️

  • Halah AlH
    Halah AlH 10 days ago +1

    1:36 I love how ryuji is the one saying you talk too much, which says alot about "bad" it is lol.
    Great video as always!

  • Selkie
    Selkie 16 days ago +205

    I'm autistic and only recently having a "times I should've realized I was ADHD" journey, haha. Your story matches up so much with mine it's spooky.
    The recipe analogy is one of my favorites :3 I love everything you said and how you explained things.I think of the spectrum as a whole circle rather than a line between two points,
    I'm so excited for you and happy you are okay with putting some of your story out there. It's nice to be able to relate to more people and hear things put into words that I have trouble articulating. (CATS CATS CATS)

  • A Fox Named Sean
    A Fox Named Sean 4 days ago

    Someone on the spectrum and also has ADHD here: I tend to find myself talking a lot and carrying on conversations longer than they should have. I personally never really tried to fit in though because I didn't and still don't try picking up on whatever is trending among my peers. I just be me and talk about video games I like and obscure video games and dissecting the inner meaning of themes and choices done in media I like. I'm very analytical of a person lmao

  • Eva-Marie/Wrixx
    Eva-Marie/Wrixx 2 days ago

    I just wanna say watching your videos makes going through my breakup a little bit easier. I like to watch them when I feel a little extra sad. Thanks for making entertaining yet educational animations

  • Raidyn!!_2
    Raidyn!!_2 5 days ago

    My cousin's autistic too, and i always look forward to looking at other's experience.
    Thank you for this video for my own research

  • Flugan
    Flugan 8 days ago +1

    I'm bawling! 😭 I figured out I have autism two years ago (age 28) so I thought I was through with the "cry everytime I feel understood" faze. Nope, I've never seen someone talk about being scared/overwhelmed by flushing toilets and being unable to do the dishes before. Que the tears!

  • Asher Doug
    Asher Doug 16 days ago +397

    I like that you put so many references to the Owl House and other shows into your videos. I also like that you make videos covering topics like this, that so many people seem to skirt around or take at face value. They legitimately help so many people. Thank you.

    • Super Sparerib
      Super Sparerib 15 days ago +1

      @Tim The Penguin Can I have timestamps? Here's young Eda in return: 6:39 And I think the blob at 7:51 is an abomination? Not sure lol. I already noticed Willow at 9:29 so don't need that one haha
      Edit: Nvm I found the rest at 9:44 plus Hooty, I *am* going to keep this comment up for people who are looking for timestamps

    • BirdsOnBread
      BirdsOnBread 15 days ago

      I loved seeing the Nahobino from SMT5 in an earlier video(I think it’s the bullying one?)

    • •Acè Øf Spàdès•
      •Acè Øf Spàdès• 15 days ago +1

      Me too

    • Andrew wood
      Andrew wood 15 days ago +1

      @Janakey 007 I mean can you blame her? Season 2B is so good 😊

    • Jok3r133
      Jok3r133 15 days ago +2

      when i noticed all the owl house characters i thought she was gonna add a tick at the end.

  • Holons Pokémon
    Holons Pokémon 8 days ago

    Wow, I related to this a lot, specifically, when I was younger I had sensory problems with smell and touch, and would avoid things like hand dyers because of the sound and doorknobs because of the metal smell on my hands. After watching I talked to my mom about it and she said that I'm on the spectrum, and went OT when I was 6 to help with my fine motor skills. This video is really a breath of fresh air. Luckily for me, I'm not very autistic and doesn't really affect my daily life that much :)

  • Jaidenyuh
    Jaidenyuh 9 days ago


  • L.Lawliet's_child
    L.Lawliet's_child 12 hours ago

    I've been diagnosed with autism since I was 3. The same time as my brother. I don't know much about my autism other than I function slowly when I'm overstimulated. Meaning I'll go quiet, move slowly, get uncomfy with clothes and sound. But I can tell when others are annoyed, sad, ECT. I have a lot of friends that I manage to get closer to me. On the sad end: I don't feel close to the many people who feel close to me. Only a few. But hey, it doesn't mean I struggled a lot as a child to fit in or notice anything. I went through a shit ton of struggle to become the way I am today. Not cured but I can live for myself. And I hear you. And I remember going through your struggles.

  • Emma Orvis
    Emma Orvis 4 days ago +1

    When the guy said "You don't look autistic," It made me think about something that happened yesterday, this kid in my classroom at school and I were talking about mental and physical health, I brought up my anti-depression medication, and he said "Anti-depression? You don't look depressed." And I was standing there thinking What is a depressed person supposed to look like!?

  • Karl
    Karl 16 days ago +122

    I was diagnosed with autism when I was 13, its so amazing to see it being represented.
    Nobody ever believes me, despite having a literal diagnosis, because "Im too smart to be autistic" which is obviously NOT what autism is.
    I got bullied for years because I couldnt fit in, and have no irl friends.
    thank you for explaining it to others Illy :)

  • Morgan Payne
    Morgan Payne 16 minutes ago

    omg same. same exact thing with me

  • Just me carlycarla
    Just me carlycarla 4 hours ago

    7:25 I-I-is that you know what okay

  • Winter Davis
    Winter Davis 15 hours ago

    With my adhd I also have sensory issues mainly to the sound of the letter s, texture, and I eat one safe food for a week from time to time

  • Katicorn27
    Katicorn27 17 hours ago

    Ive been considering getting myself fully checked out cause ive always been asked if im autistic so if everyone else thinks it theres a chance theres something g going on in my head 😅

  • XanderVs
    XanderVs 16 days ago +277

    With me being one of those "lucky white boys" I was diagnosed at a very young age which honestly came in to help me alot with all the issues I had. Especially my "blackouts" but, unlike alot of people on the spectrum they were pretty dang violent. Although I know what I did was wrong alot of people at my middle and elementary school didn't know how to handle it and even though by the time I was in high school I got meds for it I still feel that with any trouble I still had my teachers handled it way better. Shout out to all the teachers at Holland High

    • texugo branco
      texugo branco 16 days ago +3

      @Zipporian You kinda lose focus on what you're doing and ''blackout''

    • Zipporian
      Zipporian 16 days ago

      Wdym by blackouts?

  • Makaio Walker
    Makaio Walker 20 hours ago

    Eda’s here

  • Natalee Massey
    Natalee Massey Day ago

    Hi i just noticed the owl lady in the background and i just wanna say ty

  • L A
    L A 2 days ago

    Omg. Me. I need to do some research. I did masking all growing up. I thought everyone did this…

  • Rin
    Rin 2 days ago

    that "i hope you trip and fall" part hit me hard because i was also bullied a lot growing up and i remember times where i would say mean things to other kids for like?? no reason?? and i always beat myself up for it wondering why the hell i did that, but knowing now that i possibly have autism it makes sense because i was just trying to mimick what others would do or say to me

  • Rhexx Greymane
    Rhexx Greymane 13 days ago +350

    As someone who is autistic and deal with everything mentioned here, thank you so much for explaining things I cant put into words because explaining anything about myself is an absolute nightmare and my brain completely forgets how to organize any information. So, i usually tell people to "specify what they want to know" in order to give a reply but for anyone completely ignorant (not in a bad way) to autism has no idea where to start. Now I can just link this instead!

    • PaperMania
      PaperMania 10 days ago

      I also struggle with how to start explaining my experience with autism and what it is, its always easier to talk about it in my mind for some reason.

    • Jellyspace
      Jellyspace 12 days ago +5

      I swear my teacher yells a lot and it hurts my ears but my classmates say she’s just talking normal id never thought of that

  • Pazzaz It's Me
    Pazzaz It's Me 4 days ago

    i am a bean cup

  • SarahxKell
    SarahxKell 4 days ago

    gurl u aint alone with the jeans 😂

  • gigi grass
    gigi grass 4 days ago

    To put something into perspective for people, medical bias and discrimination towards autistic people who aren't white dudes is really bad. When I was in wilderness therapy (which is a whole new ballpark of screwed up stuff in mental health care) I was psychologically evaluated for literally everything, because everyone is there. I was diagnosed with "nonverbal learning disorder" and "strong autistic traits" and then the psychologist proceeded to degrade and insult me for two whole pages in my report calling me a selfish and immature person. I was barely 15. My therapist there then told my parents it just meant I was, (this is verbatim) "really quirky". I was offically diagnosed a few months later when I was tested to see what academic accomodations I qualify for.
    I took the RAADS autism quotient test thing and I score 173, the mean score for autistic people is 130, and the highest possible score is 227. 160 is "strong evidence for autism". It's been 3 years since I was diagnosed and my relatives have just begun to take the fact that I'm autistic seriously, and when people find out I'm autistic, around 50% of them question it. I get a lot of "are you sure" or "hmm I don't know about that". The most annoying part of this is that being autistic does actively make it much harder for me to exist on a daily basis, and there are things I am legally not allowed to do because of it.

  • creator665
    creator665 5 days ago

    there is just young Eda from owl house in the background at 6:25

    • Sr.Raymundo
      Sr.Raymundo 3 days ago

      1:15 and ryuji, makoto, ann & futaba from persona 5 (1:37 TWICE)

    • mmpj twod
      mmpj twod 5 days ago

      Tyler from turning red

  • Casey's Corner
    Casey's Corner 16 days ago +213

    This video is so well done, as someone who is AFAB and POC it's insanely hard for me to go about getting a diagnosis. When I was in seventh grade, my mom took me to get tested and even though the doctor said I met all the diagnostic criteria, he refused to diagnose me because it "didn't effect" me. However, if I go through a list of things we talked about, ie: I hated loud toilets with a passion and would cry if I had to deal with them, I loved choir but hated concerts because the band was always so loud it hurt my ears, I never went anywhere without wearing a giant puffy coat. It becomes pretty clear that it did effect me, and the doctor couldn't even just not diagnose me with anything because once again, I met all the criteria. Since then I've had a diagnosis of SPCD (social pragmatic communication disorder) and I've been trying to figure out how to go about actually getting a proper diagnosis, because my behaviors and symptoms are clearly much more than I've been diagnosed.

    • Waffle_icecream
      Waffle_icecream 15 days ago

      Change that from “poc” to pogs

    • sassycourt 25
      sassycourt 25 16 days ago +6

      You should definitely look into a new doctor, that's such a racist mindset, but there are a lot of great doctors. Even if it may take awhile you will find a good doctor that can help you.

    • JJAA //JoyJoyArtist
      JJAA //JoyJoyArtist 16 days ago +10

      I can't believe that doctor. That's such a racist mindset, hopefully someday soon you'll find one that understands you better and cares.

  • Cookienuts
    Cookienuts 5 days ago

    I love The owl house easter eggs

  • Royal Bulgarian cat
    Royal Bulgarian cat 5 days ago

    Don't you just hate it when someone says "you don't look autistic!"?!

  • akechi fan?!
    akechi fan?! 6 days ago


  • last master of rulers

    I have 4 uhhhhhh youand those were kinda critical

  • OwO
    OwO 16 days ago +105

    Seeing Clip-Sharers talk about their Autism and ADHD, really makes me happy. It makes me happy that I can also relate, since I also have it.
    Also the ADHD joke at the beginning. Top notch!

  • Picachu Girl
    Picachu Girl 6 days ago

    Lmao I related to a lot of that. But id avoid getting diagnosed with that even, because the ✨stigma✨can ligma. Ive been diagnosed with plenty; ptsd, anxiety, pretty sure the depression left the chat finally, and recently adhd and dyscalculia 😂 I am a mess. I am really glad to know i have a learning disability though, cause i was very scared about starting college. Its something i am coming to terms with a bit, because I got made fun of a lot for being "stupid" or the r-word (i got called it alot so im practicing reclaiming the word lmao but yt hates that word) but I was really just disabled ✨✨✨
    Ok... Not going to self diagnose cause i feel its a bad idea with all the other stuffs i got, cause I get picked on enough in my life. But i looked at the dsm... I might just be mildly autistic and this will be the only time I ever admit to that. Though ive been sussing myself out for a few years. But not dealing with it. Nope ✨ I dont need more reasons for someone to discriminate meeeeee

  • Khalid K
    Khalid K 7 days ago


  • D
    D 7 days ago

    Im pretty sure im on the spectrum too, i just have no idea about how to go about getting diagnosed?? Ive always been called sensitive or a cry baby because i had no other way of saying ‘help im being over stimulated rn’ its always loud noises, extreme temperatures, even just feeling water or wet things would just make me feel frustrated. Today its more or less the same as i felt back then but I don’t cry over everything. I just become frustrated and can show anger

  • Version R
    Version R 8 days ago

    “Quirked up white boy with a little bit of swag” all right I see you.

  • Elizabeth Olson
    Elizabeth Olson 16 days ago +397

    I relate to literally everything in this video, even the part about not wearing tight jeans because they're itchy and wayyy too distracting. My mom knew I had ADHD from a young age but never did anything (or told me) about it because I still did "okay" in school. Little did she know that I struggled to listen to teachers, couldn't make eye contact with most people, could barely take notes, hyper-focused on unimportant details, and struggled in social situations; just to name a few things. This is actually why I got into reading in middle school, I couldn't make mistakes if I was reading a book.
    QUICK NOTE FOR PARENTS: please please please PLEASE tell your child if they are diagnosed with a mental disorder. Not telling them WILL LEAD to low self-esteem and negative thoughts about themselves. Think about it; If you are told over and over to not talk so much, to stop being over-dramatic and such, you are going to bottle your emotions up and isolate yourself. THIS IS BAD. HELP YOUR CHILD. They need support and keeping this a secret might lead to them thinking that you are ASHAMED of having a child with a mental disability. PLEASE take this into consideration.

    • Briar Eyberg
      Briar Eyberg 11 days ago

      I'm fine with jeans but I like them to be baggy. Since that's my type of fashion style.

    • L.P.
      L.P. 15 days ago +2

      Jeans are nice

    • Sunny Moon: will upload in 2022
      Sunny Moon: will upload in 2022 15 days ago +2

      @Chickennuggetpaw 469 This comment tho- everyone calls me “the girl who’s afraid of pants” like, im not afraid of any pants except jeans and HOW THE FRIG ARE THEY COMFY PPL-

    • Chickennuggetpaw 469
      Chickennuggetpaw 469 16 days ago +2

      Seriously though jeans are so uncomfortable. I have no idea why everyone keeps telling me they’re comfy. You want comfy pants? Try leggings or sweatpants, not scratchy blue torture traps

    • when I think of a better title ill change it
      when I think of a better title ill change it 16 days ago +2

      IK RIGHT?!? for me it was the tags on the backs of shirts and people chewing. I still get passed when grandma gets my sister's potato chips. I literally was almost held back by my teacher from what I thought were just these dumb little mistakes like eating a cupcakes with the wrapper on it ect.

  • FR13NDSH1P
    FR13NDSH1P 8 days ago

    Hey! I’m in the gifted part of the spectrum, and this is amazing seeing that I’m not alone!!

  • Tako Aishi Is Poggers

    I was diagnosed with ADHD when I was 2, and autism when I was 12. 😌

  • Cassie Moyles
    Cassie Moyles 8 days ago

    Why am I crying......

  • Empowerment Coach
    Empowerment Coach 8 days ago

    I’m using my moms account rn and what you said about 7th grade jeans..
    Bro that was me rn exactly everything you said happpend to me. btw I’m not like 6yr Timmy using mommy’s iPad I don’t have a phone but I wanted to comment

  • 𝚂 𝚊 𝚕 𝚎 𝚖   ☹︎

    “It felt like the be yourself quote applied to everyone but me.”
    Hits way to close to home. Over the years I’ve been very selective about sharing my interests with people because whenever I went on long rants they’d ignore me or tell me that I was annoying. I’ve only ever opened up to one close friend, who I’m still in contact with even though they moved 3 years ago. I just feel like there’s no safe space for me to express my feelings and ideas. There’s certain thing I know I can’t say because I’m me. Like, if i said a certain joke they wouldn’t laugh, they’d just give me a polite smile. If my friend said that joke, everyone would act like it was the funniest thing in the world.
    Edit: also the ‘You don’t seem autistic.’ Reminded me of an experience. I let slip that my brother was autistic (something that still haunts me to this day) and we also had an autistic kid in our class. He was closer to what people view as typically autistic, he had trouble talking and doing certain things. One of my friends immediately got it into their head that my brother was like that kid and asked about it. The others, who had met my brother, were pretty shocked (which I don’t blame them for). They all said stuff like; ‘Wait, hold up! He acts so normal, not like (insert kid in our class’s name)’ ‘Are you lying? But he doesn’t have any trouble with school!’ ‘He was probably diagnosed wrong’
    I was so mad at them but didn’t speak up, because I was afraid. I’ve always been afraid of my friends because I’m if I tell them what I’m really thinking, they’ll hate me.

    • Anime Weeb
      Anime Weeb 11 days ago +1

      @Kanykei Doorova it's exhausting -_-

    • Kanykei Doorova
      Kanykei Doorova 12 days ago +1

      @Anime Weeb I KNOW RIGHT

    • Kanykei Doorova
      Kanykei Doorova 12 days ago +1

      i definitely agree

    • Anime Weeb
      Anime Weeb 12 days ago +4

      when people say be yourself, they're actually saying "be yourself as long as yourself fits inside the box society created for you"

    • Llova1
      Llova1 12 days ago

      I can fully relate to this